I wanted to write something beauty related today but decided not to.I am going to talk about binge eating disorder (consuming large quantities of food in a short amount of time) to make it more clear ,binge eating ususally means junk food overload and simply having no control of what is happening.
So this is my story!
I don't know when it began but i guess somewhere between age of 14, it started of as simple as buying a large bag of chips (crisps) that is ment to be a sharing pack but was being consumed only by me, I didn't realise I was doing something wrong because I would consume that bag of chips or a large container of cookies and feel fine no guilt or anything (guilt is a big part of binge disorder) but it didn't end there the amount of food increased very slowly but it increased over time. Usually it turned into a late night snacking and then late night binging. I never understood what was wrong nor did I wanted to until one day I felt very guilty and disgusted with myself and that's when I knew something wasn't right and I should stop! And eventually I stopped binge eating but the nightly cravings didn't stop and I continued to eat mainly at night. And here I am today sitting here with a bag of sun-bites a bag of M&Ms and two packs of eclairs all consumed within a span of 10 minutes and that is why I am writing this blog, Binge eating is a very dangerous disease and that turns into a disorder without any signs or any consequences, but I am now understanding where this is all coming from its the fact that I didn't have proper nutrition I needed for today I keep up with clean eating and today all I had was a bowl of rice but never the less I worked out for a good 90 min so no wonder I was craving nutrition but instead my head made a very stupId decision over clouded by my disorder I am now clear of what is happening and I am fully understanding, because I know my body, I listen to my body, but now I gotta start listening to my mind as well, "happiness is a choice" and I choose it now I got to choose to understand my mind better and learn how to control this disorder .
At the end of the day I guess my goal is to at least help myself with this and to understand why this is happening!
This was an extremely raw and personal post I hope I can help someone and big thank you for reading our blog!
This is very undetailed story and very short but it's the first step I have never been diagnosed professionally but by doing my research I came to a conclusion of what it is.But it is a very hard and mentally challenging story because I am ashamed of it and I am trying to overcome it so please bare with me.
with Love Ugne
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